I think it’s eating my soul
As I once again fall
Oh now I feel it all
I was just fine this morning…
I’d tell them what was wrong
If only I could figure out what’s going on
Come on, hold on!
Why aren’t you strong?
I stare blankly at the wall…the darkness looks so complicated
I think about everything and how much I hate it.
I don’t see it now but I know somehow a good day will come and although it won’t stay
It will be a moment…
a moment free of sadness, a moment free of pain and a moment free of numbness.
A free moment.
How many times have you felt like you don’t matter?
How many times have you been asked what’s the matter?
How many times have you lied and replied with I’m fine?
How many times have you wanted to die?
How many times have you died… emotionally?
Had no words – unable to speak, unable to move.
I fought for you, I fought for us
I always forgot
to fight for me.
All I wanted was to be happy
but with you it was never a calm sea,
just a dreadful storm
and all I could do was sit back and once again watch you
rip out my soul.
Too much pain
Too many memories
The one who hurt me so deep.