It seems quite insane…
that you can heal something as bad as pain.
I don’t mean the pain you can cure with a pill,
or remove by simply staying still,
I mean the pain from losing someone or something;
The pain that is caused by sadness.
Being sad is painful,
I know because I’ve been there way too often.
All I can say is let it all in…
then one day… it just stops.
I feel like most of the posts I’ve made so far are either about “Pain” or “Writing about Pain”.
Today, however, I didn’t feel any of that.
I had an unexpectedly good day. The crazy thing is I started the day with a bad attitude, just wanting to go back to sleep. Next thing I know it turned into the best day I could think of.
You see, I learned an important lesson today: sometimes you just have to tell bad people to fuck off.
It seems impossible – believe me I used to think it was – but one day you’ll just meet the right people somehow, and you won’t feel lonely and you’ll have a day where you forget to think about that guy for a few hours. And then you’ll pause and realize you had a happy day.
Of course I will still post about pain because pain will always be there. But at least not all of the time.