I woke up several times during that first night with an aching in my chest. It took me a few seconds to remember where the pain was coming from… you broke my heart.
The next morning as I was driving to school I tried to focus on the one thing that has always kept me sane: music.
I was singing along and out of nowhere I lost my breath and started crying. I could not stop sobbing and when I finally got myself to calm down I tried to focus on the music again but not a single word would come out of my mouth.
So I got to school and spoke to as many people I could find, laughed at as many jokes as I could think of. “It’s going to be okay”… I convinced myself. But just seeing you for a second made it all start again.
On the way home I yelled the lyrics to Taylor Swift’s songs this time – refusing to let any thoughts through my head. But then I got home and it was quiet and for a second I gave in. That’s when it all came rushing in…
I was crying uncontrollably, I fell down on the dark couch and did not recognize the sound that was coming from my chest. It hurt so bad – I had to beg myself to stop. Instead of getting words out I got more tears.
But then… all of a sudden… the tears just stopped. And so did the pain. But most importantly – so did my feelings for you.
And that’s how I got over you.
**ABOUT THIS POST:
I wrote this piece after my first heartbreak. This is the first time I discovered how therapeutic writing can be.
Thank you for all the support on my blog so far… Your likes and comments and follows motivate me so much. One of the best feelings for a writer is to receive positive feedback on their work.
Lots of love!
There’s something about writing that makes pain bearable. It’s when you share it that you realize that you’re not alone.
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Exactly! ❤️
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I love it … your post!! Wow I mean… #priceless
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Writing has helped me get over many horrible things and blogging has helped even more. Glad you write.
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Thank you 🙂
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Feeling you… Just let it all out… Praying for your rainbows after the rain… Hugs! Much love
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Thank you very much xx
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I remember my first heartbreak. It felt a lot like this. Music always made it worse for me, though – too many love songs.
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Yeah I couldn’t deal with happy love songs for so long 😦 thanks for reading ❤️
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🙂
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You are so good at expressing pain, which means you have way too much experience with it :(. I hope you have good in your life, too.
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Awh thank you so much ❤️
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You wrote it so well that reading it was therapeutic for me. Thanks for writing 🙂
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That’s very encouraging, thank you!
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I literally did the same thing on my blog the other day and I feel soo much better already. It’s soo nice to know I’m not alone by people who are willing to share their experiences and openly express the pain they felt. 👍
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Definitely! Thanks for reading ❤️
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Reblogged this on MadeleineMaya and commented:
Thank you for sharing. Enjoying your Blog. Madeleine
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Thank you for reading and encouraging me 🙂 ❤️
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My Pleasure and Thank you for sharing. Madeleine
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I agree, writing is a good way out to release our emotions.
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Oh the memeries are flowing past me as I read your post. I have at least ten thick books filled with words, journals, keeping me sane from everyone and everything. I used to write in periods but never for sharing. Only for me. And I never read what I wrote. But I know there are so much pain hidden in those pages… Xx
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Thank you for sharing!
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Thank you for writing this. We have all been there and sometimes we can’t find the word to explain exactly what we’ve felt.
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That’s life❤
Keep growing strong 💕
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Thank you so much for sharing this, and with such honesty and depth of feeling. May you find happiness that will totally eclipse the pain.
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Thank you so much, what an encouraging comment! ❤️
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You are so right about writing being therapeutic..i started writing two weeks ago and i feel more peaceful ..
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That’s great! Keep writing ❤️
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