I woke up several times during that first night with an aching in my chest. It took me a few seconds to remember where the pain was coming from… you broke my heart.
The next morning as I was driving to school I tried to focus on the one thing that has always kept me sane: music.
I was singing along and out of nowhere I lost my breath and started crying. I could not stop sobbing and when I finally got myself to calm down I tried to focus on the music again but not a single word would come out of my mouth.
So I got to school and spoke to as many people I could find, laughed at as many jokes as I could think of. “It’s going to be okay”… I convinced myself. But just seeing you for a second made it all start again.
On the way home I yelled the lyrics to Taylor Swift’s songs this time – refusing to let any thoughts through my head. But then I got home and it was quiet and for a second I gave in. That’s when it all came rushing in…
I was crying uncontrollably, I fell down on the dark couch and did not recognize the sound that was coming from my chest. It hurt so bad – I had to beg myself to stop. Instead of getting words out I got more tears.
But then… all of a sudden… the tears just stopped. And so did the pain. But most importantly – so did my feelings for you.
And that’s how I got over you.
**ABOUT THIS POST:
I wrote this piece after my first heartbreak. This is the first time I discovered how therapeutic writing can be.
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